2 posts tagged “sapuri”

often times when i'm watching Jdrama i get the feeling, "wow we're living in a totally different universe." in Japan it seems like there's a lot more assuming responsibility for other people, whether or not they want it. for example, Ishida decides to give Fujii Minami up to the big-haired guy (whose name escapes me at the moment) because he thinks he's not good enough himself. does Fujii want to be with mr. big hair? no. she specifically chose Ishida. she likes him. she wants to have his babies. why isn't that enough?
i always feel like i'm missing the big picture, that things become more complicated as we age. that's probably true. but in reality Ishida is running away from himself; he feels inadequate and probably is scared that Fujii will see through him and realize how irreconcilably incompatible they are. he's afraid that he won't have a future, despite what *everyone* is telling him. he just needs more experience, but he's afraid to learn.
i'm not saying they're an excellent couple. they definitely seem a little awkward together, from the aesthetic perspective at least. but if they both have these feelings for each other, then why deny them?
but about the responsibility thing--maybe american culture is an anomaly here, because i rarely hear about people "giving" someone they like to their rival. are human emotions so easy to manipulate anyway? a NANA scene comes to mind: Yasu telling Ren that if he doesn't hurry up, Yasu will take Nana for himself. he might not have actually done it, but just saying something like that is weird, isn't it? because how will he take Nana if she has no feelings for him?
when i watch these shows, it becomes obvious how wired i am to accept things that are fed to me. anything, really.  when i'm watching with other people and witness their reactions, which are usually much more pronounced than my own, i feel like i should be questioning more instead of just nodding yes to everything i see. the thing is, i've always tried to justify other people's actions, and when something goes wrong, i've more often than not found fault with myself. it's still hard, though, to realize something's not quite right, especially when it's subtle and so prevalent in other shows.

Kame is sort of like, adorable. >_< actual post coming eventually..